What is LOVE ?

How do we know that we are REALLY in LOVE ?

When we meet that SPECIAL person...

how can we tell that our feelings are GENUINE and not merely INFATUATION ?

And

If they are genuine

Will these feelings LAST ?

someone that i dislike...

since i'd studied in college few months...

i do likes to back again last time

with my friends

happy together

out together...

but now...

no friends already

all seems that so busying working or studying

how bout my classmate??

lol

erm...

they...

they are good

but....

haizz...

somekind of people that dont know why

is so clever that i know

but looks so proud

when is just happened something

trouble or funny lar...

will laugh like hell!!

when ask ya something...

ya answered me sound like dont wanna talk...

when going somewhere else...

ya dont inform you and just get off the place

but wait people for a while can gua???

1st i saw ya very kind

but now...

i know what kind of people ya now...

izit all name that is start from alphabet "J" is like a wolf??

means clever till very "gan"

and like to talk different story when meet another friends

if bu shuang then said la..

or can discuss d ma

almost everyday act like that you think very nice meh??

with them got smile d

when talk to people look so serious for what??

you dont appreciate me also

sometime just a call to people to fetch you to school

then go fetch you....

but now how you treat people??

dont think that you had higher educate than me then treat people like la!!!

W you said right already

how you know that X is a person like that??

????

你知道吗...

我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉

[你]

懂得让我流泪的人

给的感动一定是最深

在我心中留下伤痕

你同时点亮了星辰

我只愿守护由你给过我的一切

我想除了你 谁也无法填补这空虚

if got earlier things....

when i'm post this blog is already 2.36am

well...

and it is already tuesday

Tuesday....

i have an earliest class on tuesday

why i still stay up so late???

the story was from one of my friend...

he ask me to have a last celebration of his birthday

and then we had our steamboat

he invite his gang of friends

quite many people

then at there...

sure they will ask for some beer

here the one....

they drunk

and they already blur

ofcourse

after that..they played untill someone had injured

actually i wanna back home earlier d

but not i drive wor

so i cant do anything

haizz

felt so regret after been there

saw them drunk more regret

then i decide to skip class again le

behtahan already

if sleep....just can sleep more 4hours only

what for i need to sleep???

haizz

plan

yesterday was my friend birthday

well~

he had invite all of his friends to his birthday party

"POPPY"

there....

really many people

dont know why la~

haizz...

he drunk like hell...

to him...

maybe is too happy

anything la~

thats his birthday i cant say anything what...

><

actually i behtahan those people who dont know theirs limit

when they drunk...

they are not human already XD

but yesterday

i quite enjoy for A LITTLE BIT ONLY.....lol

XD

1 thing i would not forget is....

when i inform the birthday boy that i back home

he did sucks thing

1st.....he hug me

this i can accept

cause just hug only ma

but he did bite me

he bite my shoulder

well~

you all dont know that feelings...

it was so damn pain

although there had no any injured scarce

but affected both part of my shoulder very pain now

need to get see a "tit da"doctor see what happen

now....i cant even get a bit heavy things now already.....

haizz

early early better said that i'm not attend your invite is right d...

now made me untill like that

so sucks!!!

i'd been told myself not to smoke and take much alcohol

but yesterday i did took it both

haizz

anyway~yesterday d feeling a bit different

so....

i'd smoked many

i'd drank half and more (???)

after this...

i will not smoke again!!!

i will not drink more alcohol again!!!

they made me so uncomfortable!!

they almost kill me!!

say HI! to the healthy lifestyle ^^

about 5am++ then i get back home

so early right??

lol

><

after i reached home...

i prepare everything already then i watch some drama

and then i slept (6am++)

already slept for 6 hours then i woke up

continue to watch my drama ^^

i tell myself

after watch finish this drama

i must seriously concentrate on my study already

my mid-term was not so good and not so bad

but some fail

and then final is around the corner

i will sleep earlier d

most of the time i will keep revising my subject d

no bad activities for me again

and then my life style also need to change more busy

lol

>.<

also dont know i can reach my target or not

haizz

but i will try my best d

+U!! +U!!

met something~

this few days, i keep watching korea drama

from the day i woke up until midnight...

what i watching was
"FLOWER FOUR" [korea]

is a nice and touching drama

seems that i already outdate ba~

i think some of them already watched it
but now i sin watch it
i could saw that

what had happened in the drama is almost the same

actually is 25-50% la~

some situation was same with me that i had before
no happiness but sadness the most...

time to time

day to day

month to month

year to year

i just got hurt by everyone that i'd met before

"how much guys i did get hurt by them??"

"how many times i had get hurt by them??"

these question keep running in my head

i can remember who's the one who hurt me deeply before

i can never forget who are they

until now!!!

i never met before some kind of people that is seriously....

could i ask??

i want to play with you all untill when??

and you all wanna to play with me until when??

just feeling not FAIR!!

why they can do like that

but why we cant??

i feel exausted by those idiot guys

i feel very tired that i cant concentrate on my things

seriously thinking i am really a VERY VERY STUPID GIRL!!!

exausted...haizz

yesterday....28-10-2009

again..

haiz

sister fainted again

dont know why

but...

sent to HUKM again

lol

but this time...

is the other man

this man is polite and kind

not likes the 1st time met that want

this man ask my sister question kindly...^^

and then we continue wait there

bout 1 hour++

actually me and my dad gonna to go a wedding dinner d

but cant rush to there

and we cancelled the appoinment^^

i sleep at home^^

*blog again later......